I think I’ve tried (at least attempted) to carry on likebusiness as usual around here, but I’m not gonna lie or hide I’ve got the blah blahdoms and I need to get it out. Posting something light and content worthy almost feels stressful. I also just have nothing even close to post that is worthy and chipper to report.
We wait every day with baited hope for a magical phone call or e-mail to arrive. To hear anything at this point would be a blessing. The hubs has sent in multiple resumes a day and yet we hear nothing. No interviews, no we will get in touch, nothing. It’s very sobering and gut wrenching at the same time.
I feel the days ticking by, though the day itself seems so long and tedious, and I admit I become anxiety stricken. The various scenarios play out in my head..if this than this..or this than this.. The hubs has to constantly reassure me and keep me focused. We run through the financial playbook every day. He still reminds me everyday we’re A OK! Cause we are and I have certainly added that to my list of grateful things. The rent is paid, utilities are paid, all that’s left is eating for the rest of the month. We’re OK! So many can’t say that. We can also be thankful that unemployment will finally kick in soon as well. Hopefully we won’t have to linger with it long.
I know that the higher up has this all planned out (as I believe he’s been setting things in motion for this for awhile) and I just have to let him take the wheel and let him fly. I just wish I could get a brief glimpse of what’s in store, cause I’m not big on surprises and like to have some kind of plan. It would help out so much and I could get the ball rolling. Just knowing what I need to do or need to plan to do, would help me out so much down here big guy…hint ..hint..hint…
I’m also in the glass half empty mode. I already believe we will be moving and most likely to OK. Many would think that moving back “home” to family and friends would be something to look forward to. In some cases yes, but the Libra in me also has to weigh things out and the pros of staying here outweigh the pros of going there. The main number one cause is that; I HATE the thought of my boys being moved yet again to another school to adapt, adjust, and apply- if that makes sense. I just don’t believe a kid should have to go through so many changes when adjusting to regular school alone is hard enough, much less starting all over again and again and again, just makes school life even harder.
I’m already feeling a tinge better just letting it all hang out. WE ARE OK and that’s all that matters!